Have You?...I Have!

-Have u ever had the feeling of doing what u cant do? Not that u have to, but u just wanna do something that ain't you?

-have u ever tried listening to yourself while your in pain? The shouts,the thoughts but u realize that it goes in vein?

-Have u ever wondered why nothing ever stays the same? Not that a lot of things have changed, but names only remain the same?

-Have u ever fell down, n thought that u were downing? Then a sun shines and lightens ur rescue rope, sometimes it gets a bit late, but it was the only rescue rope?

-Have u ever looked at the sky? So beautiful that you’d smile , just thinking in your mind, saying “ I wish all this was mine “ ?

-Have u ever told some1 something? But you felt it meant nothing, not that you read minds, but you know words is nothing to such a person ?

-Have u ever woke up from a deep sleep, n had no reason to stand, but u kept telling yourself “ man “ its another day, smile and everything is going 2 b just as u planned ?

-Have u ever had a day, that all u needed is a hug? That never ends because, u wanna hear some1 u trust, say I got your back Suleiman ?

-Have u ever felt your a mountain?, that explodes , spill tons of volcano, all u trying to do is handle , so no1 gets to feel it n struggle?

but then u come back to your senses and show the world who u really are ? n try to make it up to all those days that u don't know what was up ?

Don’t get me wrong, i'm grateful, happy with what I have, i'm just a person who's not used to talk, coz when I do, I feel weak, sad n thats not who I am!

-Have u ever met real people that you’d jump into the fire just to save them, n after u saved them u forget that your on fire ?

-Have u ever felt like your the happiest person ever? Not knowing minutes ago u were talking to some1 who was saying goodbye forever ?

-Have u ever been told that everything happens for a reason, but u never knew no reasons for what happens but u believed it ?

-Have u ever wished that it rains forever?, not to enjoy it, so no1 can know your crying, even tho tears wont come out, its patience and faith together!

Im thankful that I dnt feel all that anymore, but its hard, always knew pain would visit me, bt not that far ! im not complaining, im me, n tell me u dnt like it, cz that would just mean ur another empty box in my closet !


* been holding this pain for so long, though the rain neva goes away, they say I should leave these things behind me, but its so hard to escape, oh lord please send me an angel , to lead out of this place, take me away, away, far away, to better days !*

-K.S