Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometime u have to run away…just to see who will run after you
Sometimes you have to talk softly…just to see who’s listening
Sometimes you have to step up in a fight… just to see who is by your side
Sometimes you have to make a wrong decision…just to see who’s there to fix it
Sometimes you have to let go of the one you love…just to see if he/she loves toy enough to come back
Sometimes you have to smile even if you want to cry…just so you don’t make someone feel what you feel
Sometimes you have to forgive…just because you still want him/her in your life
Sometimes you have to move on…just to start seeing who’s around you
Sometimes you have to yell…just so he/she knows you still care
Sometimes you have play along… just so you don’t want to ruin something
Sometimes I will be there and sometimes I won’t…I cant promise to be there forever but to stop trying I won’t
Sometimes you have to keep quiet…just so you know who’s there for you
Sometimes you have to be not seen…just to know who notices your presence
Sometimes you will be on top of the world and sometimes you will be beneath the ground, most important of all is you never look down.
Sometimes we do something, just because its fun… but sometimes we do something that means a lot, but nothing to non.
Today I write, think and have fun…tomorrow you’ll remember then forget because I’m done.

- Suly

never gone

As far a I know,she was my best friend,I tried to talk her up, is it time yet ?
never had a bigga sis but she family,I never talked about them,but she would insist.
I tld her everything she showed me everything,she told me anything, she would give anything , just to see a smile in me, or to make me smile atleast. Im on my worst condition,she offers her lap for me,Im sleeping hours n hours she refuses to rest just to make me finally sleep.
I have my operation,she says its allright! I been there before bro trust me its allright,
I go up getting ready,pretending that its not heavy,but she had this smile that would make things morning even if it’s a night!
I wake up from it, I see my family there,I turn my head right I see her waving “hey”.
Wish I could be there, to tel her not to go, but there aint no point, coz that’s the life goal.
Shes In a coma hanging on she don’t wana go. I keep on walking out her room not knowing what to think at all.
I know your family miss you n I cant say the words,to say it hurts, I hope the prayers work, because I prayed for lil L, but god still took him, but ima keep on praying, coz gods always looking :)

Three days before it happened, she comes to pick me up, “ suly lets cruise around” , lets ibti “ wanted to be around,
” suly im ur big sis, I know you listen to me, I have a surprise for you, all I want is to promise me! Im sitting there quiet wondering, what is she thinking of, is something bothering? Go head im listening!
“Between all of you,u r the patient one, if anything happens to me you know what my advise number one”! I never got her point, thru days im getting it, if only people like her exsisted, and now I missed it. Remember you asking me to write. To write something about you,something that I liked, i don’t remember disliking nothing despite, despite I hate that im writing it when your not on our side :(
I don’t want you to leave, but they wont let you stay. I wish I had the power, to take the pain away. Wipe away the tears, and take the rain away. Wish we could all be together forever so get down and pray.
Life is a blessing,but feels like a curse when its ending, when you lose the one you love, you never question what god plan is, its like you ran away, so why you had to go away? We’ll see you again some day, coz I wont let you fade away.

R.I.P big one

Have You?...I Have!

-Have u ever had the feeling of doing what u cant do? Not that u have to, but u just wanna do something that ain't you?

-have u ever tried listening to yourself while your in pain? The shouts,the thoughts but u realize that it goes in vein?

-Have u ever wondered why nothing ever stays the same? Not that a lot of things have changed, but names only remain the same?

-Have u ever fell down, n thought that u were downing? Then a sun shines and lightens ur rescue rope, sometimes it gets a bit late, but it was the only rescue rope?

-Have u ever looked at the sky? So beautiful that you’d smile , just thinking in your mind, saying “ I wish all this was mine “ ?

-Have u ever told some1 something? But you felt it meant nothing, not that you read minds, but you know words is nothing to such a person ?

-Have u ever woke up from a deep sleep, n had no reason to stand, but u kept telling yourself “ man “ its another day, smile and everything is going 2 b just as u planned ?

-Have u ever had a day, that all u needed is a hug? That never ends because, u wanna hear some1 u trust, say I got your back Suleiman ?

-Have u ever felt your a mountain?, that explodes , spill tons of volcano, all u trying to do is handle , so no1 gets to feel it n struggle?

but then u come back to your senses and show the world who u really are ? n try to make it up to all those days that u don't know what was up ?

Don’t get me wrong, i'm grateful, happy with what I have, i'm just a person who's not used to talk, coz when I do, I feel weak, sad n thats not who I am!

-Have u ever met real people that you’d jump into the fire just to save them, n after u saved them u forget that your on fire ?

-Have u ever felt like your the happiest person ever? Not knowing minutes ago u were talking to some1 who was saying goodbye forever ?

-Have u ever been told that everything happens for a reason, but u never knew no reasons for what happens but u believed it ?

-Have u ever wished that it rains forever?, not to enjoy it, so no1 can know your crying, even tho tears wont come out, its patience and faith together!

Im thankful that I dnt feel all that anymore, but its hard, always knew pain would visit me, bt not that far ! im not complaining, im me, n tell me u dnt like it, cz that would just mean ur another empty box in my closet !


* been holding this pain for so long, though the rain neva goes away, they say I should leave these things behind me, but its so hard to escape, oh lord please send me an angel , to lead out of this place, take me away, away, far away, to better days !*

-K.S