never gone

As far a I know,she was my best friend,I tried to talk her up, is it time yet ?
never had a bigga sis but she family,I never talked about them,but she would insist.
I tld her everything she showed me everything,she told me anything, she would give anything , just to see a smile in me, or to make me smile atleast. Im on my worst condition,she offers her lap for me,Im sleeping hours n hours she refuses to rest just to make me finally sleep.
I have my operation,she says its allright! I been there before bro trust me its allright,
I go up getting ready,pretending that its not heavy,but she had this smile that would make things morning even if it’s a night!
I wake up from it, I see my family there,I turn my head right I see her waving “hey”.
Wish I could be there, to tel her not to go, but there aint no point, coz that’s the life goal.
Shes In a coma hanging on she don’t wana go. I keep on walking out her room not knowing what to think at all.
I know your family miss you n I cant say the words,to say it hurts, I hope the prayers work, because I prayed for lil L, but god still took him, but ima keep on praying, coz gods always looking :)

Three days before it happened, she comes to pick me up, “ suly lets cruise around” , lets ibti “ wanted to be around,
” suly im ur big sis, I know you listen to me, I have a surprise for you, all I want is to promise me! Im sitting there quiet wondering, what is she thinking of, is something bothering? Go head im listening!
“Between all of you,u r the patient one, if anything happens to me you know what my advise number one”! I never got her point, thru days im getting it, if only people like her exsisted, and now I missed it. Remember you asking me to write. To write something about you,something that I liked, i don’t remember disliking nothing despite, despite I hate that im writing it when your not on our side :(
I don’t want you to leave, but they wont let you stay. I wish I had the power, to take the pain away. Wipe away the tears, and take the rain away. Wish we could all be together forever so get down and pray.
Life is a blessing,but feels like a curse when its ending, when you lose the one you love, you never question what god plan is, its like you ran away, so why you had to go away? We’ll see you again some day, coz I wont let you fade away.

R.I.P big one